I've been wasting my time, staring at the door that got shut a month ago. I am still staring at it every day, hoping that it will open again, and I'll be able to get in and be part of what I wouldn't be missing now if it wasn't for my fault. At the same time, the doors that remain open, they give me a peek of what it is and that never changes. I appreciate it and I like it, but maybe not in the way that I should.
What is friendship?; How does it feel to be a friend?. A friendship can't start based on a lie. A person that pretends to be a friend, and that lies since day one, it's maybe a person that doesn't want to be your friend now or later. Friends-Lovers-Ex-Lovers... Friends?. It is possible, but both have to be willing to really become that. The person that got hurt was willing to become that, and the one that finished it, the one with that 'friend' idea, simply vanished. Unstable? ok, but also a liar and a jerk that has no respect for others' feelings. An annoyed jerk that rushes into things in order to overcome his own pain, thinking that others will take it away. It is possible, but you are not letting the right people, those who know you best, help you. Why keep on writing and questioning myself about you?. Would you do the same?. Probably not because the difference between you and I is that I still care when in your life I died the moment you realized I was of no use anymore. I still have questions, but I wouldn't be wondering if you hadn't lied. But again, what do you care?. Hoping that you will come back as the friend you promised to be, is like believing in the fairy tales I never believed as a little girl. And because you're not coming back to apologize for your immature and jerk attitude toward me, when I get you out of my system, I will destroy you with the thoughts I refused to pay attention to so that I wouldn't end up seeing you the way you really are. I believed in you, so I trusted you.
People like you get noticed by the "cheerful/friendly" facade you want others to see so that they believe that is really who you are. You even think that is who you are, but you are still nobody. Your belongings are the only things that you own, for you still don't have yourself because you don't exist. There is still a long road to go through in order for you to create yourself. Once you told me "You have all of your life to figure out who you are", I think you were speaking about your confused self because if you don't figure who you are now, you will be like the ghost that's wandering around through life. Liars lie to themselves, and they don't even notice it.
Je ne veux pas ressentir de haine, mais c'est tout ce que tu m'as laissé avec ton...Mensonge!
What is friendship?; How does it feel to be a friend?. A friendship can't start based on a lie. A person that pretends to be a friend, and that lies since day one, it's maybe a person that doesn't want to be your friend now or later. Friends-Lovers-Ex-Lovers... Friends?. It is possible, but both have to be willing to really become that. The person that got hurt was willing to become that, and the one that finished it, the one with that 'friend' idea, simply vanished. Unstable? ok, but also a liar and a jerk that has no respect for others' feelings. An annoyed jerk that rushes into things in order to overcome his own pain, thinking that others will take it away. It is possible, but you are not letting the right people, those who know you best, help you. Why keep on writing and questioning myself about you?. Would you do the same?. Probably not because the difference between you and I is that I still care when in your life I died the moment you realized I was of no use anymore. I still have questions, but I wouldn't be wondering if you hadn't lied. But again, what do you care?. Hoping that you will come back as the friend you promised to be, is like believing in the fairy tales I never believed as a little girl. And because you're not coming back to apologize for your immature and jerk attitude toward me, when I get you out of my system, I will destroy you with the thoughts I refused to pay attention to so that I wouldn't end up seeing you the way you really are. I believed in you, so I trusted you.
People like you get noticed by the "cheerful/friendly" facade you want others to see so that they believe that is really who you are. You even think that is who you are, but you are still nobody. Your belongings are the only things that you own, for you still don't have yourself because you don't exist. There is still a long road to go through in order for you to create yourself. Once you told me "You have all of your life to figure out who you are", I think you were speaking about your confused self because if you don't figure who you are now, you will be like the ghost that's wandering around through life. Liars lie to themselves, and they don't even notice it.
Je ne veux pas ressentir de haine, mais c'est tout ce que tu m'as laissé avec ton...Mensonge!
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