Crash and Burn*

I played with fire, and I got burned. It really was too good to be true, and I finally understood what D meant with "if you don't respect yourself, then others won't respect you". I just can't keep on falling this hard and this fast.
I trusted you, and I never imagined you were going to fail me. Even though there were no expectations of that type, I hoped that you were going to respect me after all. I'm never enough for someone. I always lack everything. I am so disposable and have no value. I opened myself too soon, and I lost everything including myself. Once again I'm ready to go and never come back, but I can't do it because I don't want to suffer. Today I am ready. I am sorry for becoming a disappointment. It really wasn't my intention that all this went so bad. I tried to do my best in controlling myself, but my emotions overruled.
I slept for a couple of hours, then I woke up to read the words that brought me down earlier. They didn't hurt me again because the damage is already done. It's like being poisoned, the second time won't make any difference. Another lesson learned the hard way. Ok, I can't say that I've learned it until I'm exposed to a similar situation and then master it by not doing the same mistake...again.
The best option for now is to walk away at least for a week, or just take the time to try and heal these wounds. I'm upset because life used you to make me suffer. However, you will never know, and I will miss everything.